now shouting in triumph, now sunk in despair

day 3 on antidepressants. Today I feel not really good. My brain fills in any way vague. sometimes I sit there and stare in front of me, that's very scary. Yesterday I felt my fingers would fly over the keyboard and now everything runs in slow motion. Tomorrow, I will hide myself in a lake. There, I will try to write, worked 5 years ago already, so why not tomorrow? I've eaten almost nothing since yesterday. But I have no hunger, I was just thirsty. In the moment I could fall asleep immediately, but that could already be over in a couple minutes. is not the first time today that I could just sleep and uproot trees in the next moment. horrible

new blog, new luck

it's time to kick the muse in her lazy... you know what i mean.

One deep breath to take. Just one, not more, and the darkness would devour her. The water dazed her wits. Nothing to hear, nothing to see, nothing to feel exapt severe cold. She never imagined that this would be her end. Not in that way.